So this morning's list? The life this that are happening that keep getting in the way:
Summer reading busting my butt as the library gears up for its busiest season.
Evening plans that bring me home later than normal.
A story about a girl and her bike and not wanting to waste any more energy.
Missing a loved one.
Early to bed. See the summer reading thing.
Twitter. And books. And season finale television.
What gets in your way of creativity, lovely readers?
- A pile of books on my desk set aside for story times. It's both a blessing and a curse. And can be rather annoying when I can't actually see my desk thanks to programming and papers and more.
- Pictures of my sweet cousin taped to my storage closet at my desk. From this past Christmas. All of us piled on top of each other in a garage. Something we don't think twice about, but strangers would question.
- A friend moving to Columbus whom I will miss dearly. She's the best, but I can't wait to hear about her new adventures, dance with her at weddings and visit.
- Black and white, polka dot wellies. And they sure are getting lots of use this spring.
- Jewelry I have no intention of every wearing again. But am not quite ready to take out of the box just yet.
- A library friend coming into town this weekend. You won't want to mess with me for about 48 hours, as she'll get medieval on your ass if you do. She's that fierce.
- Texts and tweets that make the day much more fun. From unexpected to flirty to The Hunger Games. You really can't go wrong.
- Tickets to Saturday night's Pirates Game. Such a hot commodity, aren't they?
- A warm blanket.
- A quiet vacation on a warm beach. With a good book and maybe, just maybe, good company.
- All of the cards and notes the ex wrote me before he had to leave. There were many and the thoughts on them remind me of a time when love was there. And I left in too much of a hurry to remember that one day I might want to put them in a box.
- Just one more night with my best cousin. With her healthy & vibrant & every bit as lovely as I will always remember. I want to laugh with her and then eat some junk food at her kitchen tables, laughing over board games.
- A reason to wear my pretty little dresses in the evening and the weather to go with them.
- One day to spend in bed. Silently with a good book, pen and paper.
- A true Greek gyro.
I love this blog. It's a place where I can write relatively freely and it's been the best creative project I've started in years. But it has also been a push for me to get back to my writing roots. I used to be very concerned about what people thought about my written words. And I stopped writing. I would sometimes write in blank journals gifted to me by friends and family. But even that stopped too.
But now, I find myself wanting to write more and more. And I'm trying to take Hemingway's advice to write "one true thing" every day. If I start with that simple advice, then writing more doesn't seem too daunting. And so, this is my way of challenging myself.
I'm trying to pledge to post 2 true things every Monday, then have you dear readers, choose which story you'd like to hear. A bit of creative non-fiction, a truth turned into a story or some other piece. And then, on the following Monday, I'll post my final story. Maybe you'll hate it, maybe you'll love it. Maybe it doesn't matter. But sometimes I need pushed to do things that are the hardest.
So here are the first choices in the Choose My Own Adventure Monday. You can vote or leave a comment. And then wait for the story to be told in a week. I'm pretty excited & hope you stick with me.
But tomorrow is a new day and a new week. I have a good feeling about this one and I am hoping some of my secret wishes actually start coming true.
But for tonight:
Because I know that Laura was talking about me on her last full day of consciousness. Concerned about my own happiness and heart. And I know she'd want me to let go of the sad and embrace my future.
So thank you to all of you who sent love and good thoughts this way. I truly believe that the most important things we can do on on this earth is to put kindness and love out in the world. And knowing that so many wonderful people were thinking about me, my cousin and all of our family really was as saving grace. So please, go listen to a favorite song, think of a loved one and promise to make a little room for happy tomorrow.
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Perhaps it is kind silly to write a blog. But in the short span since I started this one, crying my eyes out on a snowy winter night, I have written more than I have since my days at Allegheny College. Taking the time out to write regularly has opened my heart and fostered creativity. I'm even working on a few short stories and (gasp!) a poem or two on the side as well. It's been a rollercoaster year for this librarian and this blog is exactly the project I needed.
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- Sleeping on the twin mattress on my bedroom floor the very first summer my family moved into my house. Laura came for a few days of sleeping over, Barbies and swimming. I remember how hot & sticky it was those summer days but how excited I was that my best friend was here. at my new house.
- Always getting to the food buffet line first. No matter communion, picnic, family reunion, graduation party, Christmas or just get-together. We were no fools and knew that it was key to score a first-dibs spot in line among a family as large as ours.
- Wearing the same dress to our senior prom and not knowing until we saw the picture after.
- Finding abandoned baby birds in the blue spruce outside of her house on Priscilla and trying to nurse them back to health one summer afternoon.
- Whirl pools in her backyard pool. And making her, her sisters & my brother perform water ballet too.
- Laura staying up all night with me during one sixth grade sleepover. I had a terrible earache that eventually ending in a bleeding ear. And she stayed up all night with me, got me a hot water bottle and told me funny stories.
- Playing handball on her street and, being the wuss I always was, crying that my heart hurt. To this day, I have never been able to live this one down.
- Understanding my love/hate relationship with Andy Rooney & actually giving me Andy Rooney's book for my 29th birthday.
- Going to an honest-to-goodness tractor pull.
- Her rallying the troops when my love went away. Shopping & conversations over Chipotle
- Spending big money (not really) at the Rivers Casino.
- Being totally jealous that Laura already had 3 sisters, but never once feeling left out.
- And our last night out together: Margaritas & Mexican, Beers at Six Penn and, most importantly, a late night conversation that lasted until 3 or 4 in the morning. Crying and laughing and talking about life. There is not much a girl without sisters could ask for from a cousin who is one.
Since when did you forget it was 2011 and you were 29, not 23. When was the last time you could really get by on less than 6 hours of sleep? I know you did it a lot, even when you were teaching, but come on now woman, 6 am comes quick and staying up to chat with people late night isn't doing you any good in the "clear-head & functioning" department.
Thank goodness for a desk day, no programs and the weekend. You have 2 good books to devour and cute clothes to wear.
Now go get yourself a happy hour drink & remember to go to bed early tonight.
- Revisiting Ernest Hemingway, writing on some thoughts & wanting to slap him in the face.
- A librarian filled weekend with our long-lost daughter of West Virginia.
- Weather over 60 degrees and sunny. And the spring shoes that come with it.
- A customized blog layout. And the surprise it will be knowing it is just for me.
- A real, honest-t0-goodness date. Though I cannot jinx this one just yet.
I work the late shift today, so I thought I'd just put a little piece up this morning.
- Wellies. Mine are black & white polkadot.
- Cardigans: Still holding on strong, even if I can't wear some of my cute, new dresses yet.
- May flowers: It's May now, so they're coming, right?
- Bubble baths & books: Perfect closing on a rainy night.
- Headaches & cramps. So maybe they aren't actually related to rain, but they are hear today & already making the day worse than it ever needs to be.
- Limited Clothing: Seriously, I have so many cute spring/summer outfits just waiting to come off the hanger. Let's get this going.
- Nature misses me: Walking, bike riding, just eating my lunch outside.
The Paris Wife by Paula McLain ~ My book of choice this week. I started on Saturday night and equally don't want it to end/put it down. I know that it ends in a heartbreak. But this book makes me want to wear a thin dress and a bob haircut, live in almost-squalor in Post-WWI Paris and trek mountains with friends. And I find myself falling in love with Hem just as much as Hadley does only to get angry with myself. But secretly, I see much Hem in the men whom I have loved in life. The bigger-than-life personalities, the fierce love & moody temperament and the dedication of life towards a goal that is so encompassing it often means pushing love away.