29.3.16

List #269: In a Year

When it's been almost a year since you wrote something for the internet to read. Or, more accurately, when it's been almost a year since you've written anything for anyone that doesn't frequent your library to read it can be a little intimidating to get back on track.

It wasn't that I didn't think about writing in the last 11 months. It's actually quite the opposite. I've thought about it a lot. Sat down on the couch with the laptop and thought up a hundred different things to say. But every single time I would think, "Who really wants to read that?" or even more frequently, "Why do you think you have the authority to write about that?"

And as I sit here writing something tonight, I'm not quite sure I have the answers to those questions. Those fears still haunt me.

My life is completely different than what it was when I first started this writing journey that I was having a hard time coming to grips with it all and still feeling like I had something to say.

But whatever. I'm still not sure I do have something to say. And daily life in this house is nothing short of hectic without much of a predictable schedule. Both of those things are challenges when I'm trying write.

But just like the 10 year-old me who sat up in her bedroom and filled wide-ruled notebooks with stories and notes, the 34 year-old me still needs to write. So here goes nothing.

Here's your crash course in what's been happening since we last met:

  • We bought a house.
  • My new communte is just minutes away from my library.
  • I can go home for lunch every day that it's possible.
  • That baby in my life turned into a preschooler.
  • The boyfriend became my fiancĂ©.   
  • The fiancĂ© became my husband.
  • We went to the beach.
  • We traveled to California.
  • We joined some wine clubs.
  • We drank a lot of wine.
  • Family moved away.
  • Friends moved away.
  • We went to the beach again.
  • Friends had babies.
  • Medical things happened. 
  • And then medical things happened again.
  • I went to New York.
  • I saw a taping of The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon.
  • I discovered that I really like dry wines.
  • I loved being an unexpected mother.
  • I struggled with being and unexpected mother.
  • I still hate the word "step-parent."
  • I wore a lot of dresses.
  • And I wore jeans just once.
  • We had parties at our new house.
  • We still didn't get the hole in the ceiling of the spare room fixed.
  • I raked a lot of leaves.
  • We discovered a dead mouse in the house.
  • I got caught in the rain.
  • I tricked myself into stop biting my nails.
  • All in all, it's been pretty quite.
And that, is why you leave for 11 months and how you feel like you've got a lot to say. 

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